The nameless boy <3
About an hour ago I was at work, going about my business just like any other night there until a man came in and asked for my manager. Now I didn’t think much of it and went to get him, the man had already been inside eating and drinking with friends and what I assumed to be one of their sons. When my manager finally came up to talk to the man all I really heard was him saying “he’s been having some problems and isn’t in a good position right now” so I just figured he was talking about one of the men drinking too much or something. Then about 15 minutes later the man came back inside and this is what he said to my manager “I think you should call 911, he has been having suicidal intents and has scars and cuts on his arms. He says he doesn’t want to go home because he is scared of himself, he knows he will kill himself.” I was left standing there in shock trying to process what I had just heard. About 10 minutes later 2 police cars and an ambulance showed up, the boy talked to the police man, I saw him showing him his arm, and then after about 20 minutes he got into the ambulance and they left. This is what I know; the boy had gotten fired from his job earlier tonight and walked all the way to West Chester from Wilmington Delaware. The men found him wondering around the parking lot and he was asking which town he was in. The boy had opened up to these men and they helped him. The entire time all of this was happening I was wishing I could go out there and talk to the boy, to help him myself. When he came in earlier I would have never known he had those kinds of feelings and thoughts, and many people wouldn’t have known either. There are people walking around everywhere with these same feelings, yet others go around and carelessly say “go kill yourself” or other forms of that. This isn’t something people should be joking about, because even though that boy was so broken down, he was strong enough to reach out to someone, that he didn’t even know. But I guarantee if he would have heard someone or seen someone saying “go kill yourself” even if not directed at him, the chances of him doing so would have been extremely high. Although I do not know him, I look up to this boy, I am proud of him and I will always think of him. Continue being strong <3
The one thing I depend on to constantly make me happy just broke my heart. Maybe I won’t even play next year.
So I guess I should just give up?
